being fully satisfied.

do you ever have those moments when you expect something really different & better than what people do or say to you?

i feel like I have those moments too often.

people don't live up to my expectations.

they don't care for me like i want them to. 

they don't love me like they should.

they don't appreciate the things i do for them. 

i mean don't they understand who they are in the presence of? pathetic when you think about it, huh.

i watched this talk by a woman named Christy Nockels.

she was reading from 1 John 4:12 saying that Jesus' love is in us & perfected in us when we love one other.

think about it.

i mean if we really knew how much we were loved by God wouldn't we treat each other differently?

probably.

would we care about what others think of us?

would we care about how people treat us in turn for our good deeds?

probably not.

this was just really exciting to me even though i have heard this time & again.

to really think about how much He loves me.

how much He loves you..

He cares for you. He thinks about you. you are His beloved.

i always think "Uh, how can i love this person?" "how can i treat them nicely when they treat me worse than what I deserve?"

by knowing Jesus loves me more than anyone can ever love me.

& out of that satisfaction I can have the strength & joy to love & treat people well without anything in return.

Jesus' love perfected.

anyways, that what's been on my heart lately.

Alayna.