IDK MAN

I tell people all of the time that I want to be a photo journalist. I tell people this so often that I don't even know why I do anymore. Do you feel like that sometimes? When you are going through the motions so much that you don't even feel the weight of your words? I have felt that way for quite some time now. It all started when I first started liking photography.

I started taking pictures back in 2010 & I loved doing it (from what I can remember) but what I loved even more was telling people what I was good at. I think finding something like that is a really fun thing. Finally feeling like you have a purpose in life, finally feeling like you have something that describes you. I definitely felt that with photography for a long time. I don't know if it is because I have done it so long or what, but now when people ask me what I like to do, I just say photography.

Don't you think that at some point in our lives after a certain amount of time of loving something, we should take like another test just to absolutely love the same thing still? Of course I know I have some type of talent, but for real, to love something the exact same amount for 7 years just sounds like a long time to me. We need a love certification paper that makes you take another certification class after 5 years - like what they do for life guards & stuff. Because honestly, I don't even know if I love it anymore.

You might say "WHATT??? ALAYNA DOESN'T KNOW WHAT SHE WANTS TO DO WITH HER LIFE?"
Yeah that's a good question. I don't.